Well it’s been an eventful eleven years. Alianna Logan rezzed January 9, 2006 and was my very first avatar in Second Life. My emotional attachment to Second Life has been directly tied to Alianna Logan and at times I answered to Ali better than I answered to my real life name. Linden Labs decided to remove my access to the avatar for the last time yesterday. I’ve decided to officially call it quits. I’m no longer willing to jump through their hoops to get the avatar back. I’ve done that enough. They have simply added to my realization that I pay to work for the community as if my real life time isn’t extremely valuable. In this case, it is Linden Labs’ loss in closing my main account…again.
My time in Second Life has not been one filled with earning lindens and transferring them out of SL to pay my real life bills. I’ve worked hard in SL over the years but have been one of those who helps to support Linden Labs’ workers to pay their real life bills instead. Religiously, faithfully, every month for years except for a couple of months-long breaks I had. But no more.
My alternate avatar, LadyTam Resident, held a sizable amount of mainland for some years despite the fact that I don’t sign on to SL anywhere near the way I used to. I’ve paid tier so long that it’s really become a habit. I recently decided that I wasn’t going to pay the tier because I had something much more pressing that I needed to pay in my real life that suddenly came up. It happens. I was considering whether I would catch up the past due amount later (it really wasn’t that much, it was doable) and as usual they removed access to my LadyTam Resident avatar after 30 days late. It was expected and while I didn’t like it, I was okay with that because I did owe money on the account. I wasn’t in a hurry to pay the overdue amount because I was barely signing on with my main avatar even. I put the land up for sale for less than I paid for it but didn’t think it would sell before they took it back. It sold and was spread across avatars who happened to be officers in the group so less than $2000L per avatar, I believe. One of them being my inworld wife flame’s account. I’m not sure yet if they’ve locked her out too but they decided to suddenly close all of my avatars.
In my opinion it wasn’t a good move. It’s their company so they are entitled to do as they please in order to get what they feel they are owed. But in this case they lose more money than they would have gained. I’ve decided to cease the monthly buying of lindens that I’ve done for years and because I no longer have an avatar (any avatar) there is no reason for me to continue to pay for the dedicated server DesigningSL and BloggingSL are on and serving a community I am no longer part of.
I do sincerely apologize for how abrupt this will be in closing the feeds as I had recently decided to keep them open and continue to pay for the server space after the emotional break down I had when my inworld Mother, RavenzEye Domela, passed away in real life. But it has been extremely abrupt and unexpected that I’ve lost my beloved avatar. I could pay the past due amount Monday when I get paid but I won’t be doing so. This is a good time to release my addiction to Second Life. There are other places to spend time online that have growing population instead of dwindling. And now I know not to invest so much of my money and mostly my heart in virtual property that can be taken away on a whim, no matter how long and how much I’ve put into it.
It is with a strange detachment that I say farewell to an avatar that has defined a part of the real life me for such a large portion of my life. I learned so much through Alianna Logan about myself that I can’t begin to list that here. I think I must be numb now to things that hurt relating to Second Life. I need to move on.
Most of the people that would care I’m no longer in world I can still have contact with so please don’t hesitate to reach out if you’d like to chat any time. I’ll be remaining on the same Skype nick for now. That too being habit and will likely change after a bit. The [email protected] email address I’ll keep so that will always be a way to reach me. I just may not check it as frequently over some time.
I won’t be paying the server fee this month so the feeds will close sometime after mid-month. I know Second Life will carry on as usual but I wanted to take a moment to say goodbye and explain what happened. For those who paid to have syndication (not very many) I will contact you via email to see if you would like to be refunded via Paypal. ♥ ~Formerly known as Alianna Logan
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