I think it’s natural to turn reflective when you lose someone dear to you. Especially if you have that feeling that some thing was left undone or unsaid and the realization hits you that you’ll never be able to say it or do it with the person you’ve lost.
And there is an interesting dynamic added to the sense of loss when it is a Second Life friend that passes away because you know you won’t be able to pay your respects in the real world and it feels like your sense of loss is somehow less real. The relationships I have built in this virtual world are sometimes more real than some of the ones I’ve had in my RL.
I don’t know how I can convey how much I loved my Second Life Mother, RavenzEye Domela, in a way that comes anywhere close to fitting. I feel helpless in that regard, but I am thankful that I know she knew it and felt it because it was a quiet love that was returned to me in spades, seen by practically no one but Her and I. Raven was the type of woman that one wants to be around, just being in her presence was inspiring in multiple little ways because in all ways she was just a magnificent human being. Regal and wise, undoubtedly strong but unafraid to be a beautiful vulnerable. Heart as huge as they come.
A part of my identity in Second Life feels removed because there are things that will happen from this point forward that my Mother will not see or comment on. Is it odd to feel like you’re suddenly just a little less loved in the world? The comfort of having Her there is no longer, but I will remember Her and honor Her for the rest of my days.
This is the last profile picture she uploaded to her Facebook page on November 1st and she shares her thoughts on the election on the 9th. I will miss Her. With this post I pay my respects and say a heartfelt and loving “until we meet again.”
Eyeshadow Applier: Veechi Stygian Shadow @ Sad November
Skin Applier for Catwa: DeetaleZ Face Samantha (Eastern)
Hairbase: SIIX Indian Hairbase
Antlers: Zibska Sentinel
Raven Feathers: Persefona Floating Raven Feathers & Raven Feathers in Hair
Mesh Head: Catwa Sarah
Mesh Body, Hands, Feet: Slink (Physique)
Pictures taken with LUMIPro